new discovery

well.....here we are again.

I found a panel hidden in Wayne's car.

It contained papers.......

"30 years old, large breasts, bloomington, phone number"
Amy Ginter
all the information to contact the first two known whores.
CONDOMS

I waited to confront.

Prayed and prayed and prayed.
Went to marriage night at church....asked him for honesty afterwards.

Got defensiveness....got I am sorry.....got I am a changed man.

What does that mean? "I HAVE CHANGED"

Haven't you changed before???

At what I first thought was infidelity.....an affair....met someone, had a connenction....blah blah blah....this is not what I am dealing with.

What I am dealing with is a man who trolls for whores online, chats, while he's working....whenever, whoever, WHATever.

When will this madness end???????

I am torn with my newfound faith in God. I was lost for the past few years wondering why God had forsaken me.....why did he keep letting these bad things happen.

I have found that THE only way I will get through life is with God directly at my side.

That brings me peace.
That brings me comfort.

I do not have a man I can rely on or trust......that is for certain.

Where my life is headed I have no idea......one day at a time....one step at a time.

I never ever thought my life would be where it is...EVER