Long time...no see

Well, it's been a long time since I posted....and 2 more affairs.

He decided to get involved with a girl who just turned 18....how fucking sick is that??
That was August of 2008....long story....same ole' shit

Then in November of 2009 he decides to get online with some chick on a Poker website and tell her all about our "horrible" marriage, poor him and then they email and text...he asks her out for lunch.

Why......I have so many whys

Why do I continue to stay in this marriage?
Why did I make such a horrible choice to even marry this man?
Why can't he pull his head out of his ass and be a GOOD man?

There comes a time where you need to simply love YOU more.

Can I say I also have found out about him not working. He would "pretend" he was at work. All the while we have bill collectors calling, falling behind, can't pay taxes....his pathetic ass is sitting in a car watching movies! Can you say LOSER?????

Our kids go without so he can sit on his ass in a parking lot (if that's even true) and watch movies.

That to me is about as fucking pathetic as you can get!

Year after year goes by and here I sit trying to make this marriage work. How STUPID am I?

I have to start taking steps to move on with my life and make sure I can okay. I cannot live like this. I DO NOT DESERVE ALL THE SHIT HE PILES INTO MY LIFE!

Oh, yeah....and he called the cops on me. He threw a back scratcher at me really hard and then continued to get in my face so I slapped him across the face. He then put his hands around my neck and threw me into the bathroom wall choking me and continued to spit in my face over and over. I put my hand on his face and scratched his face as I pushed his face out of mine. He called the cops on me......after all the FUCKING ABUSE he has put me through he's going to call the cops on me! Are you serious???????

Of course when the cops hear the real story they make him leave and give me information for domestic violence.

I FUCKING HATE THAT MY LIFE HAS TURNED INTO A JERRY SPRINGER SHOW!!

it is time to move on
it is time to move on
it is time to move on
it is time to move on
it is time to move on
it is time to move on
it is time to move on
it is time to move on
it is time to move on
it is time to move on

I HATE THAT THIS SELFISH FUCKING BASTARD'S ACTIONS ARE GOING TO AFFECT MY CHILDREN'S LIVES!